Erm...today feeling quite confused....confused until i keep on making mistakes when im working today..like keying the wrong orders etc....
Cos something shocked me today that it keep on running in my mind..really didnt expect this to happen...
That is bernard...he actually ask me to be his laopo cum steady...at first i wasnt taking it seriously cos he wasnt serious at all...so i told him i dun wan to be his laopo cos i onli noe him for 1+wk mah...then he say wat nvm this type of thing can slowly one.....then he keep on playing with my hair then he keep on poking me also....the worse thing is that he actually hold my hand when i was walking back to sun zone...my god...maybe i gave him the wrong idea also ba...
Cos yvonne actually told me to be aware of him cos he quite flower heart..cos yvonne used to be a victim also...she say wat as long as the gal can tok to him quite well then he will like the gal...at first i tot she was toking crap so didnt bother n i continue to tok to him like wat i do to normal friends...then got call him "darling" for fun n give him hugs when he goes home...i mean i do this as a point of a friend not that type of thing u noe..so maybe he got the wrong idea..so i am partly to blame for this also....
I mean maybe i can accept him but the problem is not so fast loh...i just need more time to noe him...then on the other hand..i told peter abt this thing..and wat he told me is that when pple wan to chase u u shld give the person a chance...n he told me actually among the guys working in k box...bernard is the most honest one...hmm...dunno whether shld trust him or not cos peter is also someone who wun tell lies...
I was also shocked that when he hold my hands,i never ask him to let go or wat...maybe i am someone who have to learn the word "reject"....i am always bad at rejecting pple...those pple who noe me well shld noe..esp jie...
Today at least liyun is there to help me when bernard comes near to me...but tml she off...so i really dunno wat will happen to me tml...wat exactly will bernard do to me....and i also dunno how exactly i feel inside...whether i like him or not...hai~dun wanna think so much liao...later i cant sleep later...nitez everyone~
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
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