Decided to write a post suddenly..
Just reach home not too long ago...today working with HIM didnt turn out to be a gd one...everything was ok in the morning..he came down early to accompany me...until in the afternoon...
He fell asleep in the room...cos yesterdae he played mahjong with his friends and SHE went along as well..he played till v late tts y he fell asleep..i understand tt so i let him go take a rest..being his gf n superior at the same time is really a tough position...when i made the decision to let him rest,i was wondering what the other staffs who noe our relationship will think...the drink orders i do it for him...after 10 min i went to wake him up but still wasnt successful...so i tot nvm ill let him sleep more...
after 1 1/2 hrs i went to wake him up again...cos its almost ending work n he still got lots of things nv do...i cut lemon for him,wash cups...everything...but all the hard work didnt turn out to be appreciated..when i told him wat ive done for him..he told me tt actually i can dun nid to do all tt one...i felt hurt...ive done all the things for him n tts wat i get in return...i dun wan him to repay me anything..i did it out of my willingness..i just wan to feel appreciated..tt all...he nv think y im doing tt for him...think i got nothing to do???
So i walked out the rm...w/o saying a word...didnt expect he went back to sleep again...luckily han sheng came already so he help to do all the other things for me...finally he woke up at 6pm..and im in the bar.the moment i saw him..i just pretend i nv see him n walked out of the bar..went to office to rest...
Then he came to the office to find me...think he can sense tt im angry with him...he apologised for making me angry..i dunno y also i just feel sad n i cried in front of HIM...telling him how i feel n everything...
He told me after work he will send me to the bus stop b4 goin for mahjong again..he waited for me downstairs..i went down but forgot to take my lap top so i went back again..when im on my way going down,judy told me i have a call..its HIM...he told me tt he quarrelled with HER cos she's waiting for him at the bus stop for too long liao so he nid to go over to the bus stop urgently so he cant accompany me liao..he said sorry to me again..i said nvm but deep inside my heart i feel hurt again..i suddenly feel tt he really zhong shi her more than me...cos he nv think he wok away i wun be angry meh??I noe i shld be prepared for all these being a 3rd party but i jus feel sad at tt moment...think his promise to celebrate my 21st bdae w me maybe wun come true also...
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
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