~ xInG ReN lEi ~

2007-03-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

I have a feelin that he's leaving me...

Last wk we were still fine...but these few days he's treatin me coldly...

He looked troubled...i ask him but he refused to tell me...he just said that its family problem and he did not wish to tell me so i didn't force him also...just now i called him...i asked him finally whether he got no more feelings for me..he said still hav but not as strong as b4 n he did not noe whether to choose me or HER...i really dunno...usually he dun think of such a qn but suddenly he's thinking abt that n getting troubled abt it..suddenly i hav a feelin he's leaving me...i cried after i hang up the phone...

Maybe previouly ive given him too much stress...i realised it after tokin w sam tt night...i told myself that im not going to give him so much stress anymore cos this road is wat ive chosen n i shall bear the responsibility n not always complain abt him not giving me attention..now im tryin to change..but seems like he's not giving me this chance...

I dun understand this sudden change...we were perfectly fine last wk..no quarrels..nuttin...can anyone tell me???

I dun wan to hav a heartbroken 21st bdae..........

2007-02-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

Decided to write a post suddenly..

Just reach home not too long ago...today working with HIM didnt turn out to be a gd one...everything was ok in the morning..he came down early to accompany me...until in the afternoon...

He fell asleep in the room...cos yesterdae he played mahjong with his friends and SHE went along as well..he played till v late tts y he fell asleep..i understand tt so i let him go take a rest..being his gf n superior at the same time is really a tough position...when i made the decision to let him rest,i was wondering what the other staffs who noe our relationship will think...the drink orders i do it for him...after 10 min i went to wake him up but still wasnt successful...so i tot nvm ill let him sleep more...

after 1 1/2 hrs i went to wake him up again...cos its almost ending work n he still got lots of things nv do...i cut lemon for him,wash cups...everything...but all the hard work didnt turn out to be appreciated..when i told him wat ive done for him..he told me tt actually i can dun nid to do all tt one...i felt hurt...ive done all the things for him n tts wat i get in return...i dun wan him to repay me anything..i did it out of my willingness..i just wan to feel appreciated..tt all...he nv think y im doing tt for him...think i got nothing to do???

So i walked out the rm...w/o saying a word...didnt expect he went back to sleep again...luckily han sheng came already so he help to do all the other things for me...finally he woke up at 6pm..and im in the bar.the moment i saw him..i just pretend i nv see him n walked out of the bar..went to office to rest...

Then he came to the office to find me...think he can sense tt im angry with him...he apologised for making me angry..i dunno y also i just feel sad n i cried in front of HIM...telling him how i feel n everything...

He told me after work he will send me to the bus stop b4 goin for mahjong again..he waited for me downstairs..i went down but forgot to take my lap top so i went back again..when im on my way going down,judy told me i have a call..its HIM...he told me tt he quarrelled with HER cos she's waiting for him at the bus stop for too long liao so he nid to go over to the bus stop urgently so he cant accompany me liao..he said sorry to me again..i said nvm but deep inside my heart i feel hurt again..i suddenly feel tt he really zhong shi her more than me...cos he nv think he wok away i wun be angry meh??I noe i shld be prepared for all these being a 3rd party but i jus feel sad at tt moment...think his promise to celebrate my 21st bdae w me maybe wun come true also...

2006-11-22T01:24:00.000+08:00

Xiao Wei,thanks for cheering up my day with the autographed energy cd with my name written on it u brought from tw...thanks...

MY NAME IS AH DI WRITE ONE...THE HEART BSIDE IT ALSO...

2006-11-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

2nd day of work@ kbp...still,it didnt turn out to be gd as well...i can already feel the stress im facing...from the sales n so on...wasnt in the mood to complete my tasks as well..when its 7pm i just feel like walking out of the place fast...i just wanna get home and dun wan to stay there..

These 2 days ive been crying as well...cos only my 2nd day there..a lot of things which i dunno but kenny just threw this whole load of work for me..some to be followed by the previous captains but they didnt follow..so bcome my problem is it?Today i nv even complete the work load that is needed for kenny's meeting tml..the previous captain did not do a gd handover and im still blur of many things..the stock everything..so ask me how to count??Can someone teach me???Im getting sick of all these...but not sure is bcos of the work load or bcos of the stress or bcos of the new environment...i feel like quitting!!!!

Though dada told me to put SC things aside to make it easier for myself to learn about the new outlet,but i realise tt its just too difficult not to think abt SC...cos SC is my one and only home in k box!I like the environment though its a bit old...when im there everything was smooth for the outlet as well as me...didnt know tt a phone call will ruin my work in k box...

Today i just went off quietly...actually got some things to ask kenny but he went out with adam and yong kwang for dunno how long...so i just lost my patience...i knew he would call me..for the work to be handed up tml n maybe he discover abt the locker thing (i spoil a locker today)...but i choose not to pick up....im tired of all these work n now im off duty n u still wan to tok to me abt work???This transfer to kbp is really the most di chao of my work...

And i feel so odd one out..kenny seems to be telling the two ex captains all the things despite they r no longer at the outlet...i feel left out..this feeling is so strong and painful...just like the feeling i have when its han sheng and dalvin @ SC...

Im confused now...really...and the area manager heard tt he likes checking on the cctv on morning shift staff...i think im in danger also...cant do the illegal things i did at SC anymore..

Anyway....thanksto kwang kwang and xiao wei for visiting me at the outlet today...thanks for providing a listening ear...really thank u....and i wan to say tt though our batch of Sc staff is dispatched,i will still remember all the moments that we spend together slacking,singing,working together..i really appreciate tt and i miss u all!!!!!!

AND THE USELESS ME IS CRYING AGAIN...SOB...
Maybe its time to take a break again and plan carefully abt my future again....

2006-11-18T01:28:00.000+08:00

Hey...didnt really wanted to write an entry but just feeling sad and wanted to find some way to 发泄 my emotions...

Today just got a news that im going to transfer to k box plaza from next week onwards...to many pple..they may think that its a gd chance to learn new things and get to know more pple etc...BUT TO ME...ITS NOT...

Actually there are actually a lot of things that I 放不下...cos ive been in suntec for 1 yr and 4 mths liao...more or less i feel a lot for the outlet and all my staffs...suntec have always been my 2nd home...cos i spend more than 1/2 day there everyday...and ive been there since my 1st working day when im a t.server until now whereby everyone calls my "Captain Siang Ping"..i've been thru all the ups and downs of SC outlet...really...seeing how its business is getting worse and worse after MS outlet is opened...seeing all the staffs changing pple...

I also dont understand why but i really feel strongly for SC..i once told my fellow colleagues that no matter wat happens to SC,i will definitely stay here all the way until the day i quit the job...thats why i requested to stay at SC after my promotion to captain....i can even say that no one knows SC more than me... i swear~and i have put in all my efforts in trying to make SC a better environment for everyone...

But I didnt expect this would happen to me one day..being part of k box management actually has a higher risk in getting transferred to different outlets...but all the while i am not affected...Actually ive heard from terence that there will be a shuffle in outlet in charge and captains for next wk..and he told me that i am not affected when he stepped into the outlet today and hes transferring to C8...but a phone call changed everything...

Mr Billy actually called me and asked me where i lived..i told him yishun and he ask me which is the nearest outlet to my home..when he said that i already know y he ask me that so i remained silence..he then said k box plaza and i said ya quite near then he told me next wk onwards im going there....I WAS TOTALLY UNPREPARED...

Later i also found out that not only the management is affected,even the cashier department is also affected.My cashier is leaving as well...everyone is leaving....alvin last day on mon, joe last day on 30th nov..me n joelynn also leaving..everyone is leaving...SC morning shift is dispatching...didnt even expect my last day at SC will be earlier than kwang kwang...hai~poor hui ping..shes the last one remaining..im afraid that she will quit...cos she once said if we are not here,she wont be here as well...but if she dun mind i was thinking of pulling her over to KBP with me..

Everything just happen so quickly...so time for hand overs,i dun even have the keys to KBP..how to open door?Who is in charge of the respective maintenances??Where are the stocks put?Where is the punch card room???I DONT KNOW ANYTHING~

To a lot of pple,this may seem to be a minor thing but to me its not..it is concerned with my happiness and motivation in continue working..sometimes really feel like giving up..but i still owe mum money...i cant leave yet...

I ACTUALLY CRIED OVER THE PHONE JUST NOW WHEN TOKING TO DADA OVER THIS MATTER~REALISE THAT REALLY SOME THINGS ARE NOT CONTROLLED IN OUR HANDS....

JUST CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS..AM I USELESS????

2006-04-03T23:36:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone....just a gd news to share...i passed my captain interview!!

Actually this was an expected one..cos during the interview,i think i didnt do well...some of the qns that mr billy asked i was unable to give him the correct answer...i admit that i was very disheartened after the interview....esp when i went back to my outlet and all the staff start asking how was the interview and so on...just didnt feel like telling them...even super ben...but super ben promised to give mr billy a call that night....

And the next day i was informed that i have passed te interview...i was so shocked..super ben told me that he called mr billy and he thinks that my answers were not bad and he asked super ben hows my personality and my attitude towards work...then mr billy decided to gimme a chance...

But now i am still considered as a standing captain lah....so must work hard to prove myself to be confirmed as t.captain asap....now i am still learning from thomas how to be a successful captain where all the staff respect you...

Apart from me...my dada also got promoted as captain...

But that means fen li...cos if we stay at our own outlet...there will be 3 captains altogether...every outlet shld onli have a max of 2 captains..1 night shift and 1 morning shift...so from today onwards...dada is transferred to toa payoh outlet to work morning shift while i shall stay at suntec to work night shift...

Shit..didnt feel like transferring back to the night shift after 1 month of morning shift cos i took quite some time to get used to working in the morning...now get used to it liao then must transfer back to the night shift...

NIGHT SHIFT=NO LIFE!!!!

Well..i think at least working the night shift in the outlet u r familiar with is better than transferring u to another outlet where u have to take some time to know everything abt the outlet..like wat things are put at what location..bla bla bla....

K lah..think i better go n rest liao if not tml cant wake up on time...working at 6pm insttead of 7pm liao cos captain have to do 1 more hour of work...bye everyone...take care ok~

2006-02-27T06:15:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone....im back once again.....

Sorry for not updating my blog k..just got a little bit too busy with work until i dun even have the time to surf the net....

Was thinking of getting a lap top for my own use..think only in that way i can surf the net more often cos i dun nid to snatch with my stupid brother to use the computer...

Well....today's my last day working night shift liao....

From today onwards..i will be officially changed to the morning shift just for some reason that i dun wish to reveal here...

Luckily today is my off day..if not i think i would most probably be sleeping while serving the customers this morning....haha....

And another bad thing is that i have to teach 2 newcomers....oh my god..i always say that im gd at doing my work but i just cant get the correct way to teach the newbies....sometimes i lose my patience....hai~

But changing to the morning shift may be gd also...cos 1stly i think its time for me to try out new stuff...and my mum and dad are so happy that im changing shift cos i dun have to stay out late at night and i dun nid to burn the midnight oil anymore and most importantly..i have more time with them and i get to eat mum's cooking finally...yeah!!!Miss my mum's cooking so much~~~haha.....

By the way....my cow's coming to town again this wk..but i think i cant go for the gathering cos its on sat...hai~

K lah..enuff of crap..gtg....take care guys~

2006-01-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

My first entry of the year 2006....

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES READING THIS...

Really long time nv blog liao...

Sometimes really think that bcos of my job...i gave up on a lot of things...

I got no time for my friends and family..im really very sorry for this....

Even my dad is complaining abt seeing me only once a wk..that is my off day....

Sometimes i really hope that i can be transferred to morning shift then i can spend more time with my family..and also get to eat mum's cooking...

But for the time being..i noe its totally impossible cos now im the most senior server in the night shift liao..super ben needs me to guide and teach the newcomers...which i hate the most also...i am someone who noes how to do my work well but when it comes to teaching,i found out that im really bad at it...

Perhaps the only gain that i have from my job is dada....

Anyway,yesterdae is our 5th month together...

Dada i wanna tell u that i love u k...though u may not be able to see this....

Thats all...gotta catch more sleep b4 work later...*bye*

Mrs book:I nv watch mayday concert..i noe i miss out a lot but bo bian..i tried taking leave but they dun approve cos usually weekends r v busy then they dun let me go...

2005-12-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

Decided to wriite a short one b4 going to work again~

This sat is mayday's concert....actually requested laopa to gimme a PH but in the end he nv approve my leave cos he thinks thhat the 3 newcomers are still not up to standard to manage the floor all by themselves so laopa wans me to be there to run the whole floor....

So im going to miss my mayday concert again again and again for the 3rd time in 5 yrs....

Super ben told me that mr billy will be down at our outlet this sat and he will ask mr billy to conduct my captain interview on the spot...oh my god..dunno whether hes will kidding only or serious one...cos i think i still need more time to get prepared for the captain interview..cos like wat laopa say..go for the 1st time then must hit captain liao...so must work harder in order not to let laopa now though he has been transferred back to C8 liao...

K la..think no more time for more..gtg..bye~

2005-11-04T11:43:00.000+08:00

Yo pple...long time since i last blogged...wondering if u pple miss me??Haha~

Yesterdae quite shack sia....went to chase energy...but the feeling is just totally different from the past...maybe cos my cow is not in energy anymore...just feel that something is missing...

I tried to find kunda n shout for his name..but the feeling of excitement is just not there...n some more he's not feeling well this time round..when i saw him at the airport...he was quite pale...

Then we book cab to chase them...but in the end didnt really manage to catch a glimpse of them cos they onli go suntec n go back to hotel liao...so we decided to chase F.I.R instead..haha..REAL so look so so so yandao..and he's still as friendly as usual...but the most tu lan part is that when we went to chase F.I.R,ENERGY came out from their hotel n we missed them again....

Yesterday's zui che is actually a total waste of money to me....the worst experience i ever had..maybe also cow is not there anymore....sob~

Time to bathe then go over to dada house liao...bye pple~

2005-09-15T04:55:00.000+08:00

Tot i was going to forget that i own a blog liao....

Haha....now its already mid sept n this is actually my first entry of the month.....

Think im really a workaholic liao....

Everyday after work its time to sleep...then when i wake up in the afternoon,its time to prepare to go to work again..and time just passes....real fast.....

Anyway,think i not sleepin today....shall go over to darling's house later n catch some sleep...then afternoon still have to go for manicure session....

Yesterdae very xia suay..cos darling gave me roses....then gary,kelvin they all all tease me..then sing "ni zui zhen gui" for me....cos the first sentence of the chorus goes like this..."wo hui song ni hong se mei gui..."My god~sing for the whole day liao still not enuff..today still continue to sing during work....if not they'll start singing songs realated to roses....arghhhh~~~~

Nothing much to blog actually..just wanna start the sept entries ball rolling....nitez everyone*

2005-08-28T06:19:00.000+08:00

*Yawn*

Going to sleep after blogging liao~~~

Really think my life now is so boring....onli work n sleep....

So I am getting more n more outdated....esp my favourite music part....who's having new album....i dunno.....

Onli when i step into the cd shop then i realise how serious my outdated illness is..haha~

Anyway...time flies..didnt expect myself to survive in k box for 1 n 1/2 months....wao~

Think i really like the environment ba...my fav music n all the nice pple there...yvonne, ileen,jolene, kelvin,peter,gary...n of course,having the chance to get to know my darling..haha~

Next wk thurs off again....then can go n shoppin again...yeah~tt day just spent $100+ shopping..bought a skirt,blouse....wanna buy my new shoes next month after pay day....

Gonna buy new CDs too...1+month nv buy cd liao...wanna buy mayday,cyndi,wilber n maybe fan wei qi album....just realise recently thhat fan wei qi album is great..esp " ru guo de shi"....damn nice....my fav song recently...

Gotta sleep now..damn tired..nitez everyone~

2005-08-21T06:23:00.000+08:00

Yeah~today my off day again..finally....

Later in the evening going to meet up with darling after his work...then we going out together..haha~bo bian..last sun off celebrated dad n mum's bdae then nv spend time with him...so today is so called bu chang to him..hehe...

Just now at work got some small argue with liyun...cos i was listening to songs in room 50...then suddenly she just came in and took the control n started dian ge...i mean...u noe...everytime she comes over to my star zone he will get scolding from mr michael...so if she wan to dian ge she can stay at her moon zone there n dian ge wat...

Then somemore can u pple imagine...u r trying to dian ge then someone just comes in n interrupt n start to dian ge without even asking permission if she can join in...ya..she might be rite to say that the control is not mine but at least pls bother to ask pple ok...it doesnt mean that we r friends then u can do that..u can kindly just ask kelvin to help u dian wat..he said that b4 to u liao mah...like tt u also angry n then still diao me..i got nothing much to say~

Think i becoming a workaholic liao...already outdated abt news on the entertainment circle...like 5566 got new album liao i also dunno...then mayday going to have jing xuan ji soon....hai~cant blame me also..1+month nv watch wqyl..so of course outdated....

Mrs book:Mayday final home concert confirm will be held on 10th dec...so wanna go together?I will take leave specially on that day..tickets not on sale yet....

2005-08-10T04:52:00.000+08:00

Wao~just realise that i have not been blogging for 1 wk liao....so i shall blog a llittle more today...

Well...same thing again..just return home from work...today v sad leh...tot public holiday will have a lot of business...in the end...i end up beating flies at my star zone...my star zone close so early loh...b4 10pm its close..then i went to the front to help jolene they all loh...but the most fun part is that today had a lot of fun listening to songs n singing...then was damn high...long time since i last sang at k box..then peter was trying to sing gal's song but of course he cant hit the key lah..haha...

Then i look forward to sept..cos transport will only come at 4am..then mr michael promise to let us sing for 1 hr affter closing...haha...yes~

Erm...today alomst got caught by mr michael when i was with bernard...cos he bought dinner for me as usual..then he was standing beside me eating with me at star zone there...then suddenly i got a call from yvonne..asking me to be careful cos mr michael is cumin over..but bernard told me to relax cos we nv do anything mah..then the stupid mr michael came over n sae "chi fan yi ding yao liang ge ren chi bu ke yi san ge ren chi ah?"But i guess obviously he noes something..its just that he try to act stupid loh...

Then darling bought me a ring today..haha..so thats the surprise he said he will gimme over the phone this morning...then he got 1 on his hand as well..hehe~but thats v sweet of him lah...

Oh ya...just now at CHEERS there saw a very pretty bouque...not flowers but my favourite eeyore..hehe~really love it so much..the florist corner there selling...but when i see the price i almost fainted...its $88 *faint*~shall try to hint to darling to see if he will get it for me..but i think chances not high..cos everytime i hint to him something he cant catch it..hes a bit chi dun lah..haha...but if he really get it for me...i will ai si ta but at the same time feel xin tong for him..cos its really very ex...

K lah...think thats enuff liao...

Mrs book:Next time u can just come in n sing lah...then i can serve u..haha...u stand outside confirm cannot see anything lah...i inside working leh...haha~u take care also can?

2005-08-03T05:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm...i guess i already accept bernard liao bah....

But just found out a few days ago that mr michael noes a bit of stuff abt me n bernard...and that made me real worried...so today i toked to him abt this thing...but again..he assured me that everything is ok and if mr michael tries to wei nan me he will go n tok to mr michael n help me ding...well i guess maybe i am just tend to think too much??Too much until i cant sleep these few days...haha~

He gave me a bracelet today..quite pretty one..though he told me its 5 bucks but i think its that tot that count most rite...but he kana scolding for me..cos he just gave me the bracelet like tt...then i scolded him...for not wearing it for me...so not the romantic rite...then he help me wear...haha...haha....and the worst thing is that he told the cleaner aunty that i am his gf..wah lao...must tell the whole world ah??Kns~but i think the aunty's reply more shiok....she said "bu shi mei ge nu hai zi dou shi ni de nu peng you meh?"Haha~that he say "bu shi la..zhe ge cai shi zhen de.."

But the most touching thing he told me today is that he will quit smoking bcos of me...of course i wun be expecting him to do that so fast...its impossible...so i shall give him some time ba...

Tml off...maybe will go down to sing..see mr michael will gimme f.o.c or not...then go see bernard as well..haha...cos i promised him i will be down to meet him tml...

Mrs book:U so ba gua sia~haha~so interested to noe hu's that guy ah?Not yandao one lah..u find 1 day go k box with me then u see loh..haha...

2005-07-30T04:46:00.000+08:00

Erm....today quite a lot of things happen also...

Bernard he finally biao bai to me liao...n he was real serious today telling me that he like me n stuff like tat...details i shall not reveal..cos i think its something too personal to be written in my blog...cos u noe...u nv noe who's reading ur blog right at this moment...it may be some stranger...those who wan to noe then pls call me k...haha...esp jie...when u see this pls call me..i need ur advice urgently...well he gave me 2 wks to give him an answer...will take this time to think n consider carefully ya...

Other than tt....today fri..weekend ma...so damn busy....and time passes quite quickly...oh ya..got scolded by this idiot customer in room 52....cos kelvin saw them bringing in outside food n drinks mah..so he ask me to go in n tell them tat they r not supposed to bring in if not have to charge them $30..then got this irritating gal who scolded me that wat they ordered 1 jug of beer from us then let us earn money then we still dare to say them...then i went out of the room..almost cried...then i asked kelvin to go in cos i told him tt the gal attitude me wat..then after he came out he sae nvm just let them be cos they r regular customers...then he apologised to me...i mean...regular customers so wat??That doesnt mean that they can do watever they like wat....

Oh...n the curry chicken rice today think gary nv warm enuff...cos its warm at the top but cold at the bottom...so i ate cold curry chicken...just pray that tml i wun have diarrhoea~haha~

Got to go sleep liao....sun off again~wooo~~~but think i going to spend the whole day sleepin at home again liao..haha~

2005-07-27T04:57:00.000+08:00

Erm...today feeling quite confused....confused until i keep on making mistakes when im working today..like keying the wrong orders etc....

Cos something shocked me today that it keep on running in my mind..really didnt expect this to happen...

That is bernard...he actually ask me to be his laopo cum steady...at first i wasnt taking it seriously cos he wasnt serious at all...so i told him i dun wan to be his laopo cos i onli noe him for 1+wk mah...then he say wat nvm this type of thing can slowly one.....then he keep on playing with my hair then he keep on poking me also....the worse thing is that he actually hold my hand when i was walking back to sun zone...my god...maybe i gave him the wrong idea also ba...

Cos yvonne actually told me to be aware of him cos he quite flower heart..cos yvonne used to be a victim also...she say wat as long as the gal can tok to him quite well then he will like the gal...at first i tot she was toking crap so didnt bother n i continue to tok to him like wat i do to normal friends...then got call him "darling" for fun n give him hugs when he goes home...i mean i do this as a point of a friend not that type of thing u noe..so maybe he got the wrong idea..so i am partly to blame for this also....

I mean maybe i can accept him but the problem is not so fast loh...i just need more time to noe him...then on the other hand..i told peter abt this thing..and wat he told me is that when pple wan to chase u u shld give the person a chance...n he told me actually among the guys working in k box...bernard is the most honest one...hmm...dunno whether shld trust him or not cos peter is also someone who wun tell lies...

I was also shocked that when he hold my hands,i never ask him to let go or wat...maybe i am someone who have to learn the word "reject"....i am always bad at rejecting pple...those pple who noe me well shld noe..esp jie...

Today at least liyun is there to help me when bernard comes near to me...but tml she off...so i really dunno wat will happen to me tml...wat exactly will bernard do to me....and i also dunno how exactly i feel inside...whether i like him or not...hai~dun wanna think so much liao...later i cant sleep later...nitez everyone~

2005-07-24T19:25:00.000+08:00

ENERGY法国情怀@MAISON DE POUPEE BOUTIQUE ~

2005-07-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

五月天 “这个世界”~~

在这个世界有一点希望
有一点失望我时常这么想
在这个世界有一点欢乐
有一点悲伤谁也无法逃开
我们的世界并不像你说的真有那么坏
你又何必感慨用你的关怀和所有的爱
为这个世界添一些美丽色彩

2005-07-24T18:53:00.000+08:00

Yo~today is my off day finally...after 9 days of consecutive hard work..its finally my turn to rest liao...yesterdae night suppose to finish work at 4am...but the idiot room 49 pple...sing n sing like hell..tell them last song liao still dun wan to go off...until the system switch off liao they cant do anything then they went off...told mr michael abt it but he sae we cant chase them off...cos they are VIPs mah....idiot~then onli reach home at abt 530am...

Actually i just woke up not too long ago...initially i planned to go k box today to sing then go down to wendy n sunny there to buy some photos n collect my j star magazine...but i onli managed to wake up at 5+pm just now..scary rite??I also quite shocked that i slept for such a long time..hehe~then today schedule cancel loh..shall stay at home the whole day to rest..then tml wake up earlier to go down office to collect some stuff then go walk walk liao then go for work again loh...

Oh...yesterdae's work i feel damn motivated...cos got two customers....each of them gave me $5 tips...haha~so yesterdae's total tips i contributed $10...haha...so i think my colleagues must thank me if yesterdae's tips was a lot..haha~

And i got a new darling liao..haha...its bernard...he damn funny lah...yesterdae when he going off he still tell me 亲爱的我走了...then i dunno wat to respond then i told him bye darling...then he say 来，亲一个..kns....of course i wun be so stupid n go n really kiss him or wat wat...so i just gave him a hug loh...haha~i mean i just know him for 1+wk...this is the max i can go liao...haha~

K la...go watch tv liao..bye~

2005-07-23T05:04:00.000+08:00

ENERGY “我们”~~~

好想你BABE 请放手追寻

好想你BABE 爱无懈可击

我相信思念坚定

在某年某月某一天有疯狂的记忆

好想你 BABE 守护着爱情

好想你 BABE 故事再继续

在这里我只想说这是唯一给你的歌曲

2005-07-23T04:51:00.000+08:00

Yeah~feeling quite happy today..y leh??Cos today business quite gd..a lot of customers..almost all the rooms are occupied...though i was damn busy running here n there taking order etc...i enjoyed it.its always beteer than having nutting to do and stand there till my leg hurts...rite??

Today mr michael put me in charge of star zone alone..yes..alone..surprise for a 1 wk newcomer to be in charge of one zone yeah....but luckily everything went on quite smmothly..im quite fast at keying all the drink orders liao...then i got nutting to do then i went to bar to help peter sent the drinks when i see lots of drinks hang there....*phew*Today nv kana mr michael scold...but liyun wasnt so lucky as me....

Guess tml will be another busy day ahead...haha...oh ya..must mention something...just now after work mr michael praise me..he said that i did quite well today cos i can be in charge of one zone by myself..haha...so happy~~~then kelvin taught a lot of new stuff also...but i still think theres more n more things to learn n its nv ending one..hehe~

Finally..sun is my off day!!!Yeah~~~~but i just realise something..next wk my off day is sunday again~~tot it will be a weekday for me...damn suay....keep on sunday n sunday....maybe must feedback to mr michael liao...haha...

Waking up in few hrs time again...cos gotta go lucky chinatown k box with suki n liyun to sing b4 reporting to work again in the evening...tml gotta work OT till 4am...think i going to lose weight real soon liao....think didnt have enuff rest..now my face got few pimples pop out at the same time...sob~

K lah~my cow nv liu yan today but shuwei did..so i guess i better get some sleep now..bye~

2005-07-21T05:50:00.000+08:00

阿弟：恭喜啊~~~~

今天是你的23岁大寿！！！

不知道今天的你会怎样庆祝。。。

是和其他3枚一起过还是已经佳人有约了呢？？？

哈哈~~~

无论如何，湘萍在这里祝福阿弟在这特别的日子里可以过得很开心~

虽然你即将退居幕后

但你永远都是ENERGY最棒的主唱~~

别忘记你的承诺。。。

要多来新加坡看看我们哦~~

还有。。小心今天被其他3枚整。。。

最后~要唱首生日歌给你。。。。。

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 阿弟

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

*~新加坡湘萍~*

2005-07-21T05:39:00.000+08:00

Just wanna tell someone abt how i feel though i noe u will nv see this....

1st thing i wan to clarify....i really never betray u..i am not the thief....between u n me we have shared so many things....our common goal of leaving magnius together n all the -ve comments...

Today morning when i received the msg from u..i was shocked....i really dunno wats happening cos i already 1+wk nv go down to office....u said that i told eme lots of things..but i nv..i mean i also told u b4 how i hated eme...i dun even feel like toking to her everyday in office..so how could i possibly tell her ur secrets???This 1+wk not in office..i nv contact or tok to anyone in magnius..pls trust me....

I called today so many times but u reject my calls...i think im going to lose a gd friend like u....i feel sad n disappointed...bcos i didnt noe that u nv trust me...dun tell me that these 2 months+ together u still dun understand me well....

Conclusion~wat i wanna say is that..pls note that in magnius theres full of spies...remember tt time wat mr elvis told terence abt u faking all the surveys???Nobody tell him anything but he still noes...so i think this incident is the same...if i really wanna betray u..i would have done it long time ago n they would also jie fa u long long time ago liao...dun nid to wait till today rite???

Theres all i wanna say...though im 100% sure that u wun see this..but i just wanna write out how i feel that this has been bothering me the whole day liao...including when im working....

Whether u trust me or not..its up to u.......

Pls sit down n think thru carefully~~~

2005-07-19T05:06:00.000+08:00

Today's work quite boring...cos liyun on leave today....then i was left alone with the other pple..but i still new mah..dunno the pple there quite well so i was quite quiet today at work....

But overall think i am handling the job quite well...cos i noe how to key in the orders liao...then my speed improve quite fast also..haha....but tml will be a new challenge for me..mr michael wans me to be runner for tml..cos peter on leave..then i have to carry those drinks here n there..kind of think that i cant handle it well...cos u noe my arms damn weak one mah....then i also nv do waitressing b4..then they got so many drinks..how i noe which one is which one???Die liao....really scared i will spill the drinks..cos i really think i haven get the hold of carrying so many drinks ard..

That reminds me of something...today just start work..then the 1st room i clear....something went wrong....i stacked the glasses together..then dunno suddenly y the glasses spill..then inside still got lemon tea..then kana my shirt..luckily no one saw it and the glass nv fall to the grd....if not break liao then i die also....*phiew*And i was in the lemon tea smell for the whole day at work...yucks~

Anyway,heard from liyun that xinli decided to work liao...then she wanna work at k box also..same as us..still got her other 2 friends then tml they will be going down for interview...yeah~happy...then got more pple to tok to...haha~~~

And i think i better start thinking of a christian name....cos mr michael say my name like tt very difficult to call me over the mic.....then the others were suggesting some stupid names for me just now...wat "britney" lah....then liyun will be called "spears"...*diao*..then peter suggested nancy~kns..i hate it..then they started luffing cos it sounds like that type of women's name u see...mr michael ask kelvin to think for me...then i told them just call me apple loh..since my name got "ping"....then he laughed...cos he say like tt liyun is orange liao oh..haha....then he say he will think of it n tell me tml after his meeting~haha~~~hope it will turn out to be a nice name..hehe~~~

Just received an sms from mini toons to ask me to go down for interview...but its too late liao...cos who ask them so slow..send in application form liao 2 wks then ask me go interview...though the pay is much higher than k box n its 5 working days...i think i wun accept it for the time being...scarly later they ban me if i next time apply to work in mini toons again??Haha~

Got to sleep now..its 520am..nitez~

书伟：我是书伟。。我们家的床好舒服哦~~~

牛奶：嘿！我是牛奶。。多喝牛奶有益身体健康哦~~

坤达：嘿~我是坤达。。。我真得很爱打篮球~~~

阿弟：我是阿弟。。。我超爱唱歌的~~~~

2005-07-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

Decided to update my blog b4 i leave for work again 1hr+ later...

Well...just woke up not too long ago..cos yesterdae reach home ard 5+am..then 6am then go to bed...yesterdae's work sucks....

Why leh?Cos the manager in charge is mr michael..so of course it sucks...at first when he interviewed me,i tot he was a nice guy..but i am wrong wrong wrong....

Yesterdae..he scolded me n liyun for no gd reason...i mean theres no customer cumin in so me n liyun started chatting a while..then when the customer came in,i showed her the way to her room...then when i came back liyun told me that mr michael just scolded her.."做工就做工，讲那么多话做什么。。。”Basket la...i noe we shouldnt tok but but i learn is that when there are no customers we can relax for a while mah...kns....

Then after some time..he scolded me for standing there n doing nutting...i mean i noe i shouldnt be doing this..but hello!!!Im still new..onli 2nd day of work..a lot of stuff i still dunno wat to do...n dunno wat i have to do....n u said that 1st wk is holiday one...how cum u got the rite to scold me???Idiot~~~then we busy working then u still can go into the room just bcos ur friend is in there n smoke n sing with her???Wat type of manager are u????On fri ms joey was a lot more better than u~~~~~

But yesterdae i did lots of billing...its fun..think i enjoy doing it....but just pray that nothing goes wrong with the money part..if not i have to pay for it liao...then yesterdae still got customer almost ran away without paying...cos that guy was drunk u see...dunno he order how many vodka lime from me...

Later have to go work liao..think mr michael in charge again..he sae today he wan to see how me n liyun run sun zone...kns..3rd day already ask us to fully in charge liao ah....yesterdae just teach me how to enter the code of the drinks onli...then today expect me to run everything for u??Siao guy~~~~

To all pple reading my blog n likes to go k box....pls learn to appreciate the waitress serving u..its not an easy task....when things go wrong,we get it from the managers....

By the way,next sun 24/7 my day off~~~~

牛：不要这么早留言啦~~~

每次都在我工作时留言~讨厌啦~~~

现在你每天都有去产房哦。。。

赶完了通告还要下去。。。

真是辛苦你了~~~

台湾要办演唱会了~~~~

加油哦。。。

注意防晒。。不要变巧克力牛奶~

2005-07-16T04:59:00.000+08:00

Let me see..the time now is 5am...wao~~first time blogging at such a time....

Not bcos i cant get to sleep or wat..its just tat i just reached home from work...thats it...

1st day of work at k box suntec..just wanna share something here....

Today it started off quite smoothly...got to now some of the pple in the afternoon shift..belinda...shane....then after change to night shift...i was told to be in charge of the moon zone with kelvin..at 1st was quite happy..cos he seem to be quite a nice guy and quite yandao also..thats the main pt..haha...then later dunno y..i was asked to be in charge of the sun zone instead with bernard..at 1st he was quite cool..and he started teaching me lots of stuff...but it made me even more confused..but as time goes by...we managed to break the ice n i made him smile..haha...think he ok la...but he tried to stress me up then feed me some -ve comments...then wat did he get from me??Of course some scolding loh..haha...

Then found out from him that he was doing OT today...thats y he was here...then he left at 11+pm..leaving me behind to the other guys..namely kelvin,winston n peter....peter is a china guy..so got some china slang..haha...then winston also damn cool..but didnt get much time to interact with them cos they in charge of the other zones mah...and wat i found out is..the pple there majority smokes..including the gals....just like wat its like in magnius...but again..im already used to it...haha~~

Most of the time i was saying this sentence.."欢迎光临。。xx房这边请~"Cos a lot of things haven learn yet..so today was mainly doing bringing the custimers to their rooms,serving titbits n ordering of drinks n clearing up of the rooms..oh ya..tried billing also...but theres still more to come...including how to key in orders into the pc...oh..another sentence said today was "reset,xx cut!"This means that the room is already cleared up n ready for the next customer liao...haha~

Now leg quite pain...stood for 8 hrs liao...but the gd thing is...if u're thristy..can just go kitchen and take watever drinks..its free flow..haha...today weekend somemore..so damn busy~didnt really get a chance to drink...tml have to do OT..sat is most busy one..so tml ending work onli at 4am...OT is $6/hr...

Well..i guess the best thing abt this job is tt..despite the busy work..i can listen to the latest songs...really think i 1mth+ nv go k box really gen bu shang shi dai liao...soooo many new songs...then when got pple sing energy song i will just pop by n stand outside the room to listen..haha...today got pple sing "眼泪的味道”。。then i stood outside n watch the MV..haha~~

K la..think my entry quite long liao..now the time is 515am..gotta sleep liao..bye~~~

2005-07-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

ENERGY再见新加坡演唱会2005

i周刊NO.402 14 JULY 2005

2005-07-15T00:52:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to write abt today actually...just went chinatown to get black jeans for tml's work..tml will be the first day of work at k box...quite nervous actually but still looking forward to it..hope everything goes well for tml...btw..my lao gong really very free oh...nowadays everyday come jia zu and liu yan....he came again today...missed the chance of meeting him online again~really damn suay....hai~~~

標　　題：有話說的牛牛來了
發表人：狗狗(poloboy20003 )
發表時間：2005/07/14 19:20:40

小牛們謝謝你們喔,我有看見你們去SHOW BIZ留言,牛很開心. 那你們還試要多多來喔,昨天牛牛也有去SHOW BIZ有很多人喔希望妳們能多多支持牛牛的娛樂產房SHOW BIZ 牛牛現在也會常常去SHOW BIZ娛樂產房留言,牛牛明天明天會做一件很有趣的事喔. 我待會就在娛樂產房留言板告訴大家...哈哈最近牛牛會常常來留言喔大家也要多多來喔

Just saw "everything in my heart" mv..really nice..my cow really damn cute inside..inside still got the scenes of their activities in singapore...dunno whether i will see myself inside or not...cos onli get to see 1 min of it~haha~~

Today bought final fantasy poster for 5 bucks at MJ...so happy~cos normally must buy album then will get for free one..but i already got 3 final fantasy albums liao so cant expect me to buy another one rite?Plus i planning to get another tw gai ban version..then i will have 4...then today also saw a very nice bag at espirit..almost bought it..but luckily managed to control myself..its 20 bucks...but i will confirm be back to get it...haha~

2005-07-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

再见ENERGY

从5人到4人再到现在的3人，四四方方的舞台，剩下3人无论怎么站也似缺了一个角。世界再美好，也有它的有效日期。离别有太多的愁绪。美好回忆也总是被定格。回首与展望之际，是结束亦是开始。Energy再见。再见Energy。

i周刊 No.401~2005年7月7日

2005-07-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

Well~too lazy to type in chinese today....

Today not bad....tired of working so didnt go to office today...another reason is bcos i overslept lah...onli manage to wake up at 1+pm today....then decided to call liyun up and ask her to go find job with me..cos that day at energy auto session i saw sembawang music employing full time sales assistant mah...then went there to ask abt it...then fill up the form and they say the hq will call us up again...but we didnt really take that to heart cos last fri we already went mini toons to apply for job n they promise to call us by sun..but they didnt..so we did not really put much hope on it....

Then we went city hall...actually wanted to go k box one..but didnt bring my student pass with me...then cant enjoy the k student offer then i also didnt bring enuff money mah..then went suntec wok wok with liyun loh..then passed by k box..realised that they r employing again....then we so excited then we went in to fill up the form again...and the same thing they say..will call us to ask us go for interview either tonight or tml....then we went over to kfc to eat something..

When we were on our way walking back to mrt....the k box pple called us..then ask us to go back again for interview at 730pm...so we went back...the manager interviewed us..quite a nice person...doesnt seem to be a formal interview but a chit chat session loh...to our surprise....we got the job on the spot!!!!!Yeah~have been wanting to work at k box long long time ago liao...actually i feel like getting the receptionist n cashier positions but they say they dun nid..they wan waitress....so nvm...i just accepted it..going to start job on fri....so excited!!!The manager say he will provide us with the t shirt then we have to wear black jeans on that day..so i have go buy black jeans tml liao....dun have any at home....but i working night shift leh..7pm-3am...nvm...its onli 1st wk....2nd wk onwards the manager say will separate us to 1 person morning shift 1 person night shift..hope to get the morning shift one..11am-7pm..haha....but he wanted us to promise him that work is work,friend is friend....

As for the pay...ok lah..$1050 a month...but must minus 20% CPF loh...then company contribute 15%...so its roughly $800+ a month loh...its actually ok lah...but i mean most importantly is that i think i will be very happy working in the k box environment....

Then for my current job..gonna change to part time...so wun be going office so often liao..think will be quitting soon also...really had enuff of it liao....

Just wondering..as k box staff...can go k box for free????Haha~~~~u all can go k box n find me next time liao...haha...1wk 6 days of work.....

Mrs book:Thought u forgotten all abt me liao..so long nv contact me.. :( This is a new blog but i transferred the whole shoutbox from my previous blog..thats y got ur previous posts....ill be working in k box...so can onli go k box with u during my 1 day off..hehe~~~

牛：昨天是ENERGY出道的3周年~

这3年来谢谢你的陪伴。。。

7月10日的签名会我好开心~~~

因为你给了我5颗爱心。。。。

果然没白疼你~~~

虽然我已经给了你我的BLOG的网址。。

但我不奢望你能看到我在这里想对你说的话。。。

就知道你昨天会留言~

但我哥用电脑~害我又错过了和你碰面的机会~

这两个礼拜还有好多签唱会要赶~

还有娱乐厂房的事~~

千万别累坏了哦~~~~~~

台湾的改版~我一定会买的！！！！

加油~希望你还记得我~~~

2005-07-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

2005-07-11T22:55:00.000+08:00

ENERGY离开新加坡了~~那我也终于可以好好休息一下了~~~~

过去的几天，我从来没合过眼~~~

星期六的演唱会真的好棒~我从头尖叫到尾~~特别是牛SOLO的时候~~~他真得太帅了。。真的好喜欢牛跳舞的样子。。那天他还大秀了他的身材~~~~真的好壮哦~~~~这次的演唱会。。。也还蛮感伤的~~~毕竟这是他们4个最后一次在新加坡同台~~~

当他们唱到“我们”时。。。我终于忍不住按奈已久的泪水了。。。那时。。真的好多过去3年的画面都浮现在我的脑海里。。。那些跟ENERGY一起分享的点点滴滴。。跟他们的接触的经验等~~~想到可能很久都不会在新加坡看到他们了~~~~加上荧光幕上播放着他们3年来的画面。。还有最近期FINAL FANTASY发片记者会他们哭泣的画面。。。我真的忍不住了~~~~~~

不想说太多~~~因为所有的画面都一直在我心里面播放着~~~

7月10日签名会现场。。。

演唱会结束后。。STEPH直接到J8彻夜排队。。。要先谢谢她~~~

这次的签名会。。。应该是我这3年来最开心的一次了吧~~~~为什么呢？？？

因为这次真得跟他们4个讲了好多好多的心里的话~~~~~~他们坐的顺序分别是牛奶，阿弟，坤达，书伟~~~一上台时，牛就直接伸出他的手。。然后我的手就过去了嘛~~~我们的手就一直握在一起。。然后我跟他说了好多好多的话~~~~他也很用心地听我说的每一句话~~跟他讲那么多话，真的是头一遭~~~后来我叫牛帮我画多几颗爱心~他也很乐意的帮我画了~~~他给了我5颗那么多！！！他在画到第4颗时，原本CONNIE要把专辑拿走了，但牛还是抢了回来，继续帮我画~~~也有可能是因为我拿着“牛”的板吧~所以他对我特别的好~~~~

阿弟呢？跟平常一样。。还是酷酷的~~~跟他讲了那么多他只回了我几个字~~~

坤达~~~我也是好开心！！！我们两个也是一直握着手不放。。然后我也跟坤达讲了好多话~他还蛮开心的。。。他可能觉得我说的话很好笑吧~在这里要跟坤达说~~记得我们之间的约定。。我等着你赶快回来实现你答应我的事哦~~~~他左手握我的手~右手帮我签名~~~他还给了我好大的一颗爱心~~~

书伟~~~~ 帮我快乐一个笑脸~而且他有求必应~~~我问了他MYPRINCESS是几时写的~~他跟我说是半年前的事了~~~然后我们两个就傻笑~他看着我的眼神是好像在跟我说我很有墨水~问了他这种那么音乐的问题。。然后他就跟我BYEBYE了~~~

好后悔没叫他们帮我签我的名字~~~因为STEPH他们都有~~~本来要牛帮我的。。但是CONNIE及时回来~就不成了~~~应该随便叫坤达和书伟写才对~~~不过没关系~我已经很满足了~~~

这次给了牛4封信~希望他会看看~~~~

今天送机的场面好混乱~希望牛没被歌迷弄伤~~~~

谢谢你记得我的存在~~~

下次新加坡见咯~~~~我等你回来！！！！

2005-07-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

啊~~~~~刚刚才到家。。。今天真的是太高兴了~~~

刚才到机场去接ENERGY。。。大约5点多就到了~~然后等了好久。。。STEPHANIE他们才到。。。6。50PM左右。。他们终于到了。。哈哈。。今天果然被我才对了。。牛今天穿白色的衣服。。他今天带的帽子也比上次得好看多了。。至少不是那副苍蝇眼镜~哈哈~~~本来想把我的信交给他的。。但不知道哪个混蛋推了我一下。。就没把信交给牛。。然后我们就上车开始今天的追车~~

在回酒店的途中，坤达有拉开窗帘跟我们打招呼~~~尤其当我们的车在他们的旁边时~他有注意在看我们的板哦~~~~书伟也有在看。。但他似乎知道我们在车里面呐喊，就闭了一个手势叫我们安静~~~至于我的牛嘛~~~~别提了~~~他根本没在看~~~看得出这次他蛮累了~~~更让我们觉得奇怪的事。。阿弟竟然跟我们扮鬼脸！！！太不可思议了~~平常很酷的阿弟今天既然那么HIGH~~ 总之今天就是坤达一只给我们看到饱~~哈哈~~~~

后来他们有CALL IN 给933~我们救灾UNCLE的车上听咯~~~差不多10点左右。。他们有出去了~原本已为他们是要到体育馆去彩排。。。结果他们又到了那家他们每次必去的肉骨茶店~~~可是书伟没去~~~牛真的有够可爱的~~吃饭的时候特别斯文~~然后不时露出他那可爱的兔牙~~今天的牛好叽喳哦~~~超多话跟工作人员讲的~~结果吃得这么慢~~反而使不多话的阿弟。。在牛说话的同时一直夹菜~结果在不知不觉中他吃了两碗饭~~哈哈~~~牛说话的时候动作也特别多~~他跟阿弟一起比了一个“YO..CHECK IT OUT" 的手势~~在旁的坤达到后来已经快睡着了~~~到后来他就开始跟牛一起闹了~~哈哈~真可爱~~~~

他们快吃饱的时候我就到车哪里去STANDBY了~~~结果成功地把我的信交给牛了~~这已经是第6封了~~好开心~~然后我也轻轻的摸了一下牛的肩膀然后跟他说了加油~~~当时真得靠他好近哦~~~至少终于理我了~~~刚才在机场他不理我~~然后我跟STEPH就买了牛奶然后把他喝掉报仇~~哈哈~~~~~后来才知道原来书伟没去是因为它的胃痛又发作了~~~好可怜哦~~虽然我不是那么的喜欢他~~~但还是希望他早日康复~~~不然星期六的演唱会就会很辛苦了~~~~也可能是因为书伟的关系吧~~他们并没有到现场去彩排~~~吃完了肉骨茶就回酒店休息了~~~

更气的是~他们会酒店时~~他们从后门进去~~~幸好我们及时发现~~赶紧跑到后门那里去跟他们说再见~~然后牛油跟我们说BYEBYE哦~~~果然还是牛最好~~~哈哈~~~~幸好他及时理我~~不然我又要跟他闹离婚了~~哈哈~我想太多了~~~~~~今天就这样结束了~~~明天3点菜上班~~~所以可以睡到12点~~好开心~~~~放工了应该就会去体育场那里蹲一下，看有没有既会碰到他们~哈哈~~~

又要去写信了~~~~希望又有机会交给牛~~~祝我好运吧~~~~~

ENERGY ROCKS!!!!

2005-07-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

觉得自己好不争气哦~~~今天的我又在老大面前哭了~~~

原本只想要好好的根老大谈谈关于我想找另一份工作的事情。。可是突然想起这几天所发生的事和父母亲给予我的压力，我的眼泪就留了下来。。老大就觉得我很莫名其妙~因为每次跟他谈我就会大哭一场~他跟我说我每次都是这样。。常常把一些不快乐和碰到的挫折往心里吞~等到终于要跟他谈的时候我就彻底的崩溃了。。其实我想说的是~我也不想这样~我只是因为找不到一个人倾诉罢了。。曾经的我以为JESS是个愿意听我倾诉的人~但最近的我去却发现我和她似乎越来越遥远~~~我可能把所有的实情告诉她，但最后她还是会把我所说的一切统统说给老大跟老二听。。我知道她是公事公办，但我想要让她了解的是每个人心中总有一切事情是不能向外张扬的。。。现在搞到我连想跟她说话的心情都没有了~整天只看到她和那讨人厌的花瓶出双入对。。似乎已经把我当成是隐形的了~~~现在的我反而觉得那些男同事更能够跟我沟通，并且听我诉苦。。我也不想想那么多了~现在只要快点找多一分工赚多一点钱。。其他的我想我也没有力气去想了。。。

例外，老大已经批准我星期四早走去接牛的飞机了~真的好高兴。。。终于可以在他们离开的50天后再见到他们。。。

对了~刚才终于发生了一件比较令我开心的事~就是DADDY刚才问我要不要换新的手机。。因为他的公司有优待~虽然说现在我的plan还没到期，但daddy答应愿意让我换了~所以真的好开心。。想换nokia 6230i或6670吧~哈哈~

姐~谢谢你刚才点歌给我哦~~~我有听到~~~~谢谢你的陪伴，让我知道我不是孤单的。。。
下次有机会再点 “眼泪的味道”给我吧~~~但千万要记得告诉dj不要播到一半就切掉~~哈哈~~~~

今天真的累了~刚才看“在世界的中心呼喊爱情”的时候差一点就睡着了~~哈哈~~~这部电影不错~~只是有一点太拖延时间了~~~~接下来想看“头文字D”。。。

心情之歌：蔡依林“天空”~~

在你离开之后的天空

我像风筝寻一个梦

雨后的天空是否有放晴后的面容

我静静的望着天空

试着寻找失落的感动

只能用笑容期待着雨过天晴的彩虹

2005-07-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

ENERGY: 记得我们之间的约定我们永远不说再见~~~~~
谢谢你们这3年来的陪伴。。有了你们，我的生活变得更加的精彩了。。。
牛奶 + 坤达 + 书伟 + 阿弟。。。甚至是TORO。。
你们永远是最杀最棒的团体。。。
虽然途中你们经历了许多的风风雨雨
有开心的，有感动的，也有难过~
但千万别忘了太平洋另一边有个我
一直为你们默默的打气加油。。
谢谢你们对歌迷们的贴心~
在我遇过的歌手中，
没有任何一个人能跟你们相比
你们的亲切，超乎了我的想象。。
这也许也是其中一个我喜欢你们的原因吧~
亲切又不做作，最真实的ENERGY~

*~新加坡湘萍~*

2005-07-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

今天是我第一次用华文写 blog 哦~~~觉得用华文表达自己的想法比较贴切~~哈~~

今天大约下午1点才到公司去上班。。早上到了SUNTEC 去看看有没有适合我的工作。。结果看到MINI TOONS要请人。。薪水还算不错。。。FULL TIME一个月$1300。。 PERMANENT PART TIME也有$6/HR。。。目前还在想要不要试一试~我想我应该会去更多的地方看看有没有要请人吧~

今天也不知道为什么。。一到公司看到JESS他们就觉得很PISSED OFF。。。所以今天在公司的我也显得异常的安静。。开始越来越讨厌我现在的工作。。也许我真的累了吧。。也许真的也是时候让我自己尝试不一样的东西吧。。我想在我找到了一份新的工作后。。应该就会把现在的这分工换成PART TIME 的吧。。。

谢谢姐哦~~~明天我们就可以一起去看“在世界的中心呼喊爱情”了。。我想明天我应该会感动到哭死吧。。。因为从电视上看到了一些片段~真的还蛮感人的~~~希望姐明天有机会看到崇庆哦~~~
说到牛先生。。。星期四就要到新加坡了哦~~~~而且还是傍晚的飞机哦。。。看来我又要跟老板请假了哦~~~真的越来越期待星期六演唱会的来临。。。相信那一天应该会超级难忘的~~~也应该是最后一次看到ENERGY四个人最后一次同台了吧~~~虽然心中有千万的不舍。。。但还是要祝福阿弟在幕后制作有很好的发展~~~~

突然间想起了2002年发行的一首歌~~~

我的心寄放在你身边

到我回来的那一天

思念如果乘于时间

我觉得答案是永远

我那说不出口的再见

这是我对你的誓言

因为如果你想问

爱多久那会是一万年~~~

2005-07-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

想试试用华文写blog的感觉~

不知道会不会看得到。。。

所以在这里写个几句玩一玩~

2005-07-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Just wanna share something funny that happened yesterdae night....

Haha~tok to jie over the phone yesterdae night as usual n she was busy calling 933 again while toking to me..then guess wat?Of course she managed to call in loh...then i was on the 2nd line...jie u r so sweet!!Dedicate energy's song for me..cos yanzi n cq's songs already dedicated by guojie n lala b4 u called in liao..hehe...but the jieqi really very lan..dun even noe abt energy..dunno how he bcome i weekly zong bian one...then he was toking abt boyband stuff with jie on air...then obviously jie was a bit sian diao cos she not interested in boybands one mah..then she use all her knowledge abt boybands which i taught her one lah to tok to jieqi..hehe...then the jieqi suddenly tok to me then i was shocked...he asked me wat was my name then i was like "wo shi xiang ping.."So xia suay...think the whole singapore heard me xia suay on air liao...idiot~~~

But the worse part is that he played my "yan lei de wei dao" halfway then he cut off the song!!!!!!Ah~~~~~~so unfair..he can cut the s.h.e song b4 my song wat...i chose yan lei de wei dao cos yesterdae i was feeling down mah then the song suit my mood..and another thing is that the song is 5min....then in the end he cut off the song at 1min+..bastard~~~well...i shld be a nice person here n stop scolding pple liao..hehe....

Oh ya..just read connie jie's msg...lao gong cumin on thurs liao~~~7pm flight...so shocked cos thought they will cum at the usual time at 12pm..then i guess thurs most prob i will be going off early from office to fetch them from airport loh...then their cd going to have gai ban out on 8/7..then will ahve this bonus vcd of tian yu di mv n abt their sg trip last month...hehe~~~so really look forward to the cd being released on 8/7..then 10th they will have auto session at j8 again..so i guess i will very busy again this wk...but i dun mind..cos after this time round..maybe i wun have chance to see them in town anymore...

我想我知道

眼泪的味道

曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃

我想我知道

眼泪的味道

曾经付出的每一天每一年我不曾想逃

受伤的翅膀总有一天会慢慢慢慢的变好

能飞得更高当失去你的依靠~~~

2005-07-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

I've been crying tonight again..sometimes just dun understand y i am so useless...always let my emotions control me...

Well...dad was asking me abt wat i decide to do for my future...he was telling me that he is willing to pay the fees for my SIM education...but he was hinting to me that its quite ex..cos at the same time brother was also going to study there...so he was asking me if i wan to study or not...he sae that its ok if i dun wan to study n come out to the society to work...but the condition is that my pay have to be used to support the family...but if i study..i dun have to support the family...if i wan to study...he wans me to give up on my 5566 n energy etc~he was telling me.."nan dao ni 30 sui le hai hui xi huan energy meh?"

I am confused..really confused...to be frank..i got no mood to study liao...but if i go work...i have to support the family..i mean i noe its a responsibility to support the family...but i think the time is not rite yet..i mean if dad wans us to support the family...brother shld be the one first rite...on the other hand..if i go n study...i have to do well n give up on my idols...i dunno y but i just find it difficult to do so...if i can do it..i would have already given up on it...not possible for me to have 5 yrs experience till now rite???I feel so tensed up now...i feel like leaving home....

Then as for my work side...i feel tired liao..i really feel tired...jess promised me to help me with something but she told me today that she couldnt...i have decided to look up for another job n change it to part-time liao...though laoda offered me an admin post to help mr larry n at the same time can continue doing wat i am doing now,but the pay is just too low for me...$300-$500 for admin side..u think i can survive with this little amt of money????Its all just impossible...then all the payment problem thing comes in again...nagging n nagging from all of them again..i cannot stand it anymore...i feel so stressed up..i suddenyl feel that no one understands me in this world...maybe thats the reson why i start chasing idols..its a type of ji tuo....

Enuff of the sad things...energy cumin next wk liao...so i should be happy rite??Then just read from cruz's blog that energy having autograph session on 10 july again...4pm at J8..its qing gong gai ban qian ming hui...so i guess i will be broke buying their albums ba... :P

To lao gong:
I think u are the onli one who i can tok to in this world..Though we are so far away n u may not noe me..i always feel that i can tok to u abt lots of things in my letter n i somehow feel that u noe my best...so u pao bu diao liao...u r destined to be my listener...

2005-06-29T22:37:00.000+08:00

Im lost...im really lost.....

Just reached home just now from work then immediately i saw my letter from NTU...and its open..guess wat?Of course its my dad whose hands are itchy loh...as expected..my appeal wasnt successful...so wat am i going to do next??I also not sure...i onli noe that dad wans me to go study no matter wat happens..so i guess most prob i will be down at SIM to study maybe business or accountancy ba...but if thats the case..sch will onli start for me next yr..then i think the time being i will just continue to be a workaholic ba...

Wanna tell those reading my blog a secret..actually from young till now...i have a very persistent dream...that is i wanna be a singer....maybe its cos of the influence of chinese music or idols...i really dunno...i onli noe that i love to sing..in my room....in the bathroom...almost everywhere...i may not say that i can sing very well..if theres a chance for me to learn how to sing..i really dun mind...and so far pple feedback to me when we go k box is that my singing not bad loh..haha...
But i dunno y..dun have the courage to go n take part in singing competition..if i go..i think u will see me on jue dui superstar finals liao..haha...just kidding lah...dun vomit hoh...hehe~

Basically today at office didnt do anything much...jon likes the new coffee soh..haha...then he saw something that he wasnt suppose to see..haha...then wee liat n terence were toking abt some dirty stuff n they sae it in front of me.my god!!!Then i have been there polluted for 3 hrs...how can they pollute a dan chun n innocent young gal...haha...even when going for dinner they were still toking abt the thing......they really disappoint me..haha....then audy san also so enthu to find out wat happen..guys ah..really very se....

And audy san...pls dun take me for granted!!!I help u make phone calls n link so many pple down..including jacky...so u still owe me some thing rite...though u sae u already got prepare some surprise for me tml..i still dun believe u...haha....guess u better do something for me b4 ur u starts next month k....

Think i going to have 5 days off...cos laoda they go going to thailand trip mah for training n i didnt qualify so i guess i will be busy chasing after energy..though laoda sae we must come back to clean up the company but i dun care!!!I not cuming back no matter wat happens..i wanna go k box to relief stress..haha...sing energy's new song..k box already got liao...

2005-06-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

This is my second entry for my this new blog...wanted to transfer all the stuff that i have written at ebloggy there over..but think it cannot be done since they are like 2 different blogging network..so i guess this blog will be a new beginning for me ba.....
This 2 days work have been quite boring..cos laoda gave me a plan..to recruit 1 person by 30th june and help them break zero..though its already very easy but it seems like its quite tough...then these 2 days i have been busy doing surveys at orchard there..then yesterdae i met loke at orcahrd..he was there with his camp mates...then manage to tok to him a bit...long time nv see him liao..think he have change in some ways but i just cant figure out..i onli noe tat he's wearing coloured contact lens..thats it...well..but this sat there will a council gathering again..we will be going to seoul garden for dinner!!Yummy~long time nv eat seoul garden liao....looking forward to sat...
Now my leg actually quite painful sia...stand ard for 5 hrs everyday at orchard doing survey..think my legs going to break soon...ya... f.i.r going to have new album again..its a dvd which consist of their 20 mvs...think i will definitely grab a copy of it cos i simply love all their mvs...
As for my cow...noe that u r busy rehearsing for the concert next wk in sg..wanna tell u that i really look forward to the concert next wk but pls remember to take gd care of urself k...dun fall sick b4 the concert though i am not able to take care of u now..haha...think too much liao..see ye next wk...i miss ya n luv ya k???*Muacks*
Going to take some time to decorate my room...there will be a energy corner where i put all their posters n 1 5566 corner as well..hehe...now still trying to plan how to go abt doing it...hmm...think all the posters of them will be up on the wall ba...
Dunno where to buy bulbs leh..cos the IMM shop nv sell anymore..then i want redo my cow board u see...hai~then shall be writing a letter for him again some time next wk...hope this can be the 5th successful letter passed to him...ya...quite tired recently...*yawn*...
Then yesterdae got this unknown person who msg me asking me for my msn...then today then i realise that its weiqiang's recruit..then i called him today n ask me wat he wan to ask me then he told me he was just feeling bored yesterdae n he wanted to find someone to tok to him..wah lao..if he msg n harass me again tonite..weiqiang will get it from me...haha...b4 my right palm reaches ur face..haha...gonna watch tv liao..bye~

2005-06-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

Just created this new blog of mine...think this is going to be a personal blog...to those who are reading my blog now...u are one of the few who is viewing this private blog of mine...still trying to make my this blog look better..so stay tune k?

*~ xInG ReN lEi ~*

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