I have a feelin that he's leaving me...
Last wk we were still fine...but these few days he's treatin me coldly...
He looked troubled...i ask him but he refused to tell me...he just said that its family problem and he did not wish to tell me so i didn't force him also...just now i called him...i asked him finally whether he got no more feelings for me..he said still hav but not as strong as b4 n he did not noe whether to choose me or HER...i really dunno...usually he dun think of such a qn but suddenly he's thinking abt that n getting troubled abt it..suddenly i hav a feelin he's leaving me...i cried after i hang up the phone...
Maybe previouly ive given him too much stress...i realised it after tokin w sam tt night...i told myself that im not going to give him so much stress anymore cos this road is wat ive chosen n i shall bear the responsibility n not always complain abt him not giving me attention..now im tryin to change..but seems like he's not giving me this chance...
I dun understand this sudden change...we were perfectly fine last wk..no quarrels..nuttin...can anyone tell me???
I dun wan to hav a heartbroken 21st bdae..........
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Decided to write a post suddenly..
Just reach home not too long ago...today working with HIM didnt turn out to be a gd one...everything was ok in the morning..he came down early to accompany me...until in the afternoon...
He fell asleep in the room...cos yesterdae he played mahjong with his friends and SHE went along as well..he played till v late tts y he fell asleep..i understand tt so i let him go take a rest..being his gf n superior at the same time is really a tough position...when i made the decision to let him rest,i was wondering what the other staffs who noe our relationship will think...the drink orders i do it for him...after 10 min i went to wake him up but still wasnt successful...so i tot nvm ill let him sleep more...
after 1 1/2 hrs i went to wake him up again...cos its almost ending work n he still got lots of things nv do...i cut lemon for him,wash cups...everything...but all the hard work didnt turn out to be appreciated..when i told him wat ive done for him..he told me tt actually i can dun nid to do all tt one...i felt hurt...ive done all the things for him n tts wat i get in return...i dun wan him to repay me anything..i did it out of my willingness..i just wan to feel appreciated..tt all...he nv think y im doing tt for him...think i got nothing to do???
So i walked out the rm...w/o saying a word...didnt expect he went back to sleep again...luckily han sheng came already so he help to do all the other things for me...finally he woke up at 6pm..and im in the bar.the moment i saw him..i just pretend i nv see him n walked out of the bar..went to office to rest...
Then he came to the office to find me...think he can sense tt im angry with him...he apologised for making me angry..i dunno y also i just feel sad n i cried in front of HIM...telling him how i feel n everything...
He told me after work he will send me to the bus stop b4 goin for mahjong again..he waited for me downstairs..i went down but forgot to take my lap top so i went back again..when im on my way going down,judy told me i have a call..its HIM...he told me tt he quarrelled with HER cos she's waiting for him at the bus stop for too long liao so he nid to go over to the bus stop urgently so he cant accompany me liao..he said sorry to me again..i said nvm but deep inside my heart i feel hurt again..i suddenly feel tt he really zhong shi her more than me...cos he nv think he wok away i wun be angry meh??I noe i shld be prepared for all these being a 3rd party but i jus feel sad at tt moment...think his promise to celebrate my 21st bdae w me maybe wun come true also...
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Xiao Wei,thanks for cheering up my day with the autographed energy cd with my name written on it u brought from tw...thanks...
MY NAME IS AH DI WRITE ONE...THE HEART BSIDE IT ALSO...
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
2nd day of work@ kbp...still,it didnt turn out to be gd as well...i can already feel the stress im facing...from the sales n so on...wasnt in the mood to complete my tasks as well..when its 7pm i just feel like walking out of the place fast...i just wanna get home and dun wan to stay there..
These 2 days ive been crying as well...cos only my 2nd day there..a lot of things which i dunno but kenny just threw this whole load of work for me..some to be followed by the previous captains but they didnt follow..so bcome my problem is it?Today i nv even complete the work load that is needed for kenny's meeting tml..the previous captain did not do a gd handover and im still blur of many things..the stock everything..so ask me how to count??Can someone teach me???Im getting sick of all these...but not sure is bcos of the work load or bcos of the stress or bcos of the new environment...i feel like quitting!!!!
Though dada told me to put SC things aside to make it easier for myself to learn about the new outlet,but i realise tt its just too difficult not to think abt SC...cos SC is my one and only home in k box!I like the environment though its a bit old...when im there everything was smooth for the outlet as well as me...didnt know tt a phone call will ruin my work in k box...
Today i just went off quietly...actually got some things to ask kenny but he went out with adam and yong kwang for dunno how long...so i just lost my patience...i knew he would call me..for the work to be handed up tml n maybe he discover abt the locker thing (i spoil a locker today)...but i choose not to pick up....im tired of all these work n now im off duty n u still wan to tok to me abt work???This transfer to kbp is really the most di chao of my work...
And i feel so odd one out..kenny seems to be telling the two ex captains all the things despite they r no longer at the outlet...i feel left out..this feeling is so strong and painful...just like the feeling i have when its han sheng and dalvin @ SC...
Im confused now...really...and the area manager heard tt he likes checking on the cctv on morning shift staff...i think im in danger also...cant do the illegal things i did at SC anymore..
Anyway....thanksto kwang kwang and xiao wei for visiting me at the outlet today...thanks for providing a listening ear...really thank u....and i wan to say tt though our batch of Sc staff is dispatched,i will still remember all the moments that we spend together slacking,singing,working together..i really appreciate tt and i miss u all!!!!!!
AND THE USELESS ME IS CRYING AGAIN...SOB...
Maybe its time to take a break again and plan carefully abt my future again....
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Hey...didnt really wanted to write an entry but just feeling sad and wanted to find some way to 发泄 my emotions... Today just got a news that im going to transfer to k box plaza from next week onwards...to many pple..they may think that its a gd chance to learn new things and get to know more pple etc...BUT TO ME...ITS NOT... Actually there are actually a lot of things that I 放不下...cos ive been in suntec for 1 yr and 4 mths liao...more or less i feel a lot for the outlet and all my staffs...suntec have always been my 2nd home...cos i spend more than 1/2 day there everyday...and ive been there since my 1st working day when im a t.server until now whereby everyone calls my "Captain Siang Ping"..i've been thru all the ups and downs of SC outlet...really...seeing how its business is getting worse and worse after MS outlet is opened...seeing all the staffs changing pple... I also dont understand why but i really feel strongly for SC..i once told my fellow colleagues that no matter wat happens to SC,i will definitely stay here all the way until the day i quit the job...thats why i requested to stay at SC after my promotion to captain....i can even say that no one knows SC more than me... i swear~and i have put in all my efforts in trying to make SC a better environment for everyone... But I didnt expect this would happen to me one day..being part of k box management actually has a higher risk in getting transferred to different outlets...but all the while i am not affected...Actually ive heard from terence that there will be a shuffle in outlet in charge and captains for next wk..and he told me that i am not affected when he stepped into the outlet today and hes transferring to C8...but a phone call changed everything... Mr Billy actually called me and asked me where i lived..i told him yishun and he ask me which is the nearest outlet to my home..when he said that i already know y he ask me that so i remained silence..he then said k box plaza and i said ya quite near then he told me next wk onwards im going there....I WAS TOTALLY UNPREPARED... Later i also found out that not only the management is affected,even the cashier department is also affected.My cashier is leaving as well...everyone is leaving....alvin last day on mon, joe last day on 30th nov..me n joelynn also leaving..everyone is leaving...SC morning shift is dispatching...didnt even expect my last day at SC will be earlier than kwang kwang...hai~poor hui ping..shes the last one remaining..im afraid that she will quit...cos she once said if we are not here,she wont be here as well...but if she dun mind i was thinking of pulling her over to KBP with me.. Everything just happen so quickly...so time for hand overs,i dun even have the keys to KBP..how to open door?Who is in charge of the respective maintenances??Where are the stocks put?Where is the punch card room???I DONT KNOW ANYTHING~ To a lot of pple,this may seem to be a minor thing but to me its not..it is concerned with my happiness and motivation in continue working..sometimes really feel like giving up..but i still owe mum money...i cant leave yet... I ACTUALLY CRIED OVER THE PHONE JUST NOW WHEN TOKING TO DADA OVER THIS MATTER~REALISE THAT REALLY SOME THINGS ARE NOT CONTROLLED IN OUR HANDS.... JUST CANT CONTROL MY EMOTIONS..AM I USELESS????
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Hey everyone....just a gd news to share...i passed my captain interview!!
Actually this was an expected one..cos during the interview,i think i didnt do well...some of the qns that mr billy asked i was unable to give him the correct answer...i admit that i was very disheartened after the interview....esp when i went back to my outlet and all the staff start asking how was the interview and so on...just didnt feel like telling them...even super ben...but super ben promised to give mr billy a call that night....
And the next day i was informed that i have passed te interview...i was so shocked..super ben told me that he called mr billy and he thinks that my answers were not bad and he asked super ben hows my personality and my attitude towards work...then mr billy decided to gimme a chance...
But now i am still considered as a standing captain lah....so must work hard to prove myself to be confirmed as t.captain asap....now i am still learning from thomas how to be a successful captain where all the staff respect you...
Apart from me...my dada also got promoted as captain...
But that means fen li...cos if we stay at our own outlet...there will be 3 captains altogether...every outlet shld onli have a max of 2 captains..1 night shift and 1 morning shift...so from today onwards...dada is transferred to toa payoh outlet to work morning shift while i shall stay at suntec to work night shift...
Shit..didnt feel like transferring back to the night shift after 1 month of morning shift cos i took quite some time to get used to working in the morning...now get used to it liao then must transfer back to the night shift...
NIGHT SHIFT=NO LIFE!!!!
Well..i think at least working the night shift in the outlet u r familiar with is better than transferring u to another outlet where u have to take some time to know everything abt the outlet..like wat things are put at what location..bla bla bla....
K lah..think i better go n rest liao if not tml cant wake up on time...working at 6pm insttead of 7pm liao cos captain have to do 1 more hour of work...bye everyone...take care ok~
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Monday, April 03, 2006
Hey everyone....im back once again.....
Sorry for not updating my blog k..just got a little bit too busy with work until i dun even have the time to surf the net....
Was thinking of getting a lap top for my own use..think only in that way i can surf the net more often cos i dun nid to snatch with my stupid brother to use the computer...
Well....today's my last day working night shift liao....
From today onwards..i will be officially changed to the morning shift just for some reason that i dun wish to reveal here...
Luckily today is my off day..if not i think i would most probably be sleeping while serving the customers this morning....haha....
And another bad thing is that i have to teach 2 newcomers....oh my god..i always say that im gd at doing my work but i just cant get the correct way to teach the newbies....sometimes i lose my patience....hai~
But changing to the morning shift may be gd also...cos 1stly i think its time for me to try out new stuff...and my mum and dad are so happy that im changing shift cos i dun have to stay out late at night and i dun nid to burn the midnight oil anymore and most importantly..i have more time with them and i get to eat mum's cooking finally...yeah!!!Miss my mum's cooking so much~~~haha.....
By the way....my cow's coming to town again this wk..but i think i cant go for the gathering cos its on sat...hai~
K lah..enuff of crap..gtg....take care guys~
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Monday, February 27, 2006
My first entry of the year 2006....
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND LOVED ONES READING THIS...
Really long time nv blog liao...
Sometimes really think that bcos of my job...i gave up on a lot of things...
I got no time for my friends and family..im really very sorry for this....
Even my dad is complaining abt seeing me only once a wk..that is my off day....
Sometimes i really hope that i can be transferred to morning shift then i can spend more time with my family..and also get to eat mum's cooking...
But for the time being..i noe its totally impossible cos now im the most senior server in the night shift liao..super ben needs me to guide and teach the newcomers...which i hate the most also...i am someone who noes how to do my work well but when it comes to teaching,i found out that im really bad at it...
Perhaps the only gain that i have from my job is dada....
Anyway,yesterdae is our 5th month together...
Dada i wanna tell u that i love u k...though u may not be able to see this....
Thats all...gotta catch more sleep b4 work later...*bye*
Mrs book:I nv watch mayday concert..i noe i miss out a lot but bo bian..i tried taking leave but they dun approve cos usually weekends r v busy then they dun let me go...
*~ S!@nGz~* wishhed*
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
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